Let Me Go Home

Another summer day

Has come and gone away

In Paris and Rome

But I wanna go home

Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

I just wanna go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you

Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?”

Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough

My words were cold and flat

And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane

Another sunny place

I’m lucky, I know

But I wanna go hom

eMmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home

I’m just too far from where you are

I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life

It’s like I just stepped outside

When everything was going right

And I know just why you could not

Come along with me'

Cause this was not your dream

But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come

And gone away

In even Paris and Rome

And I wanna go home

Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by

A million people I

Still feel all alone

Oh, let me go home

Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home

I’ve had my run

Baby, I’m doneI gotta go home

Let me go home

It will all be all right

I’ll be home tonight

I’m coming back home

If only.

Unhappiness

You know what I hate?

People who yell at you for no reason

People who cant get it through their THICK SKULLS that people sometimes make mistakes.

People who waste oxygen and brain cells screaming their heads off over something that doesnt FREAKING MATTER.

I'm sick of it.

One more year

And then i can just get away from him.

Go to college.

It's not worth it anymore

Im done dealing with his problems

SICK OF IT

IM DONE BEING YELLED AT FOR EVERY STUPID THING

IM DONE WITH IT ALL

Im not crying over this any more

It's is own fault I have no respect for him anymore

He did it

He recked our relationship

You're not my hero anymore

I dont want to be anything like you

NOTHING

So just leave me alone.

Im not saying I dont care about you.

I'm saying i'm tired of dealing with being treated like i'm inferior to you

I'm not

I am just as good as you

Your idea of winning an arguement is who can shout the loudest

You think your way is the only way

You wont even listen to my ideas

As soon as I say something you scream it down

YOU DONT EVEN HAVE A GOOD EXPLANATION

You just drown my voice out with your shouting

Well FINE

HAVE IT YOUR WAY

I'll just stop telling you what I think

I'm still going to disagree with you

Just leave me alone.

~River

Rant on Men

They are JERKS!

Completely....

Insensitive JERKS

-stomps-

Honestly.

After finishing Fang (the book, not the guy) I realized there was a reason I stuck with fictional guys for so long.

I'm a total sucker for the strong, dark, silent type in books.

But in real life, I bet it would honestly annoy the crap out of me.

Unless I had lived with him since like, we were little and I was totally used to it.

Seriously though....

Reading Fang (again the book)

It made me realize that I need a guy who can be sensitive when it counts.

It also made me realize that I am a whole heck of a lot like Max. Especially when it comes to Max's feelings for Fang (We're talking on both levels here now. Both me and Max and Fang and - oh never mind)

Really though...

I've had a really tough last couple of weeks, what with my Dad in the hospital AGAIN (he's home now tho :))>

But I find it depressing that I got more comfort from Red and Gray than from Fang (my Fang, not the book Fang)

And when I had my uber breakdown, he didnt even come after me....

Come on....

Sometimes I'll run away just to see if you'll chase after me...

Truth is it really hurt that you didnt call me...couldn't you tell that I was lying?

When those txts didnt go through and I thought you were ignoring me. I felt my heart break (cheesy hush). Like literally. I felt it shatter. Do you have any idea how much that hurt? I know it wasnt intentional...the txts didn't go through. But why hadn't you called me before?

*sigh*

Ever since then it hasn't felt the same...

You wont talk to me..... I wont talk to you...

I feel like you don't care.....

Like i'm just fading into the background again.

It's back to Gray and that pack of Falsefaces

*sigh*

Why cant it go back?

Fly On

~River

Much thanks

I am so extremely tired.

But Last night was absolutely amazing!!!

I love you guys so much :)

My friends all threw a surprise party for my birthday at Red's and Crow's house :)

Everyone was there ^^

Fire, Fang, Red, Crow, Feather, Sand, Wind, and Fang's friend Gray was there too :)

It was so awesommeeeee

Thank you guys so much for all those presents :)

Loves

~River

P.S. I'm so tired.

P.S.S. I'm going to be making my own cook book

Last Night

Well

This is it.

My last day.....

Last 12 hours at the moment actually..

-cant believe it-

Well it's back to being old again :)

I'm really really really hoping i get Robin Hood!!!!!

RAWR

XD

I cant wait till tomorrow!!!!!

Like SERIOUSLY

Im so excited

~River

Well I turn another year older in a few days...

So much has happened D=

My mom sprained her ankle...

I nearly got in an accident....

That was really scary...

REALLY SCARY

-sigh-

I'm putting off my history essay...

I don't want to have to write it on my Birthday....so I really should get it done...

Blah

Have I mentioned that I love Fang? :)

Worries

-sigh-
Today is not going good.
Fang won't talk to me...
I flipped out at lunch because I thought he was cutting himself.
And he laughed...
He's nearly gone sudicial once and anorexic another time.
I just...don't find that funny...
Especially when it comes from him...
But when I told him this, he just laughed at me... How am I supposed to deal with that?
I just left.... I was hoping for a denial...or a sorry....or anything...
Instead I got "oh o.o"

My day just improves from there
We have no money.
We owe a gabillion dollars to a gabillion people
My Dad isnt working alot,
My Mom might loose her job
I have stuff I have to get for school.
This isnt going to work.
And. They aren't worried.
My world is litterally falling apart.
How much longer can we afford to pay for internet?
Or for heat?
How bout food?
I can't see a way out of this....
I can't tell Fang....
He doesnt tell me about any of his family problems.....why should I share mine....
*about to cry*
I'm supposed to be able to tell him everything!!! But he won't tell me ANYTHING!
I thought he trusted me... I'm supposed to be able to just break down and just....lean on him....
but he's so distant now i'll just fall and hurt myself...
Thank God we're still best friends M....
I don't know what I'd do with out you right now :(

~River